Kindred,
Lost trust?
Lost standing?
Lost credibility?
Lost?
What must you do to find yourself (in the Lord)?
When you listen to pretenders tell you what you want to hear, predicting what you want, letting you do what you want, and not what you need to hear or do or be, in order to have good standing with the Lord, you brainwash yourself into thinking you have control over your desire for a perfect world, a perfect life (as you are spiraling out of control into a forced farce of a perfect life).
Well, life is not perfect.
It will never conform to your desires and never end up like you imagined.
That is not how life works.
Just take a look around at the sickness and death.
You can wallow in malcontent, complain about every little or big thing, but none of it will fix the real problems in you or in the world.
Self-control, self-esteem, self-confidence comes from discipline and development of good character, deeds and experience (in making wise choices with the Holy Spirit).
Out of control behaviors and insecurities come from lack of discipline and development of malcontent, fears and hate in excuses and blame of others (of making poor choices in power and abuse of power).
The lost of trust, standing and credibility will continue until you brave the truth in the Truth, have ethical standards and practices; and be and do what is necessary to be a person of good standing and credibility with the Lord and humanity.